Wednesday, August 08, 2007

自信 · 危機

最近不知怎么的
整個人喪失了自信
過去的自信
被一而再、再而三的現實
被打擊得
魂飛魄散

不管是寫新聞稿
寫雜志稿
念VO
剪片還是導播
甚至是從感情、
人際關系到
對外表的自信

多次地猶豫
重復地質疑

我嘗試從心里自信的抽屜里摸索
可是只有空洞
空蕩蕩的空洞

身邊的人不斷地大步向前進
即使是比自己遲進公司的同事
也都走得比自己還要遠
我開始質疑
我不得不開始質疑
自己的能力
自己的自信
是否
自視過高

我常跟朋友說:
如果想賺大錢,
就根本不會進我這行
當初進這行
我也沒想過要走多遠
但是兩年半的時間下來
自己還是原地踏步
這種感覺
真的很可怕

當夢想
一個一個地破滅
當現實
一波一波地沖擊到身上
我全身濕透的坐在沙灘上
等待着
星星的陪伴



Something has left my life
And I don't know where it went to
Somebody caused me strife
And it's not what I was seeking.

Didn't you see me,
didn't you hear me
Didn't you see me standing there
Why did you turn out the lights
Did you know that I was sleeping

Say a prayer for me
Help to feel the strength I did
My identity has been taken
Is my heart breaking
on me

All my plans fell through my hands
They fell
Through my hands on me
In my obvious it suddenly seems
Empty...


The Cranberries, "EMPTY"



11 comments:

  1. 自我鞭笞是件好事能让自己前进。
    但过分的鞭笞将变成压力。
    我个人认为和自己比是比较正确的,和别人比往往就会伤了自己的自信。

    你那么有才华还没自信?那我是不是该去跳河自尽去了?别那么妄自菲薄免得让那些仰慕崇拜你的人伤心哦!

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  2. 阿洛:

    也一直告訴自己,
    自己最大的敵人是自己;
    但看着別人越走越快,
    自己還是會心存懷疑..

    "有才華"、"崇拜我"?
    哈哈 你以為我是天王偶像咩 :)

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  3. 你会在意是因为你还有自觉。

    比较是自觉自己的长处和短处,也是一种推动力。

    找出为何失去信心的原因,对症下药才建立起信心。

    人比人会气死人,做好自己最重要。

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  4. Don't push yourself too much. Sometimes it is slow to view the growing up - just like in secondary school, we're not growing up in cm for a few years but when it's the time, I grew up a few cm taller.

    Do your best, don't over-stress. Jia You!

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  5. 你也太久没欣赏人了吧?欣赏一个人对方不一定会是长的像金城武。也可能是因为对方的才华,声音,文笔等等。而且很多时候就连什么原因自己也不晓得。
    扯远了。明天这个国家是国庆日,公假所以现在很轻松!羡慕吧?(邪恶!)哈

    108570951.这组号码你觉得有印象吗?^^

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  6. Xuehui1:50 AM

    我想,应该有不少人都觉得你有才华,欣赏你吧。

    自我要求是好事,对自己没有要求就不会有进步。但不要给自己太大的压力,尽了全力,也就算对得起自己。

    以前,我一直很欣赏你的自信,和你不向现实低头,追求梦想的决心。

    愿你找回从前的自己。=)

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  7. 盶祎:
    很多时候也想对症下药,
    但药房不肯开药,
    能怎样?呵呵
    心病的话,
    需要时间慢慢痊愈吧~


    meimeijoyful:
    mayb i did over-stress myself,
    thanks for ur encouragement :)
    how's life in Korea?


    阿洛:
    哦,那是我以前的ICQ哦!
    但已经很久很久没登入了,
    呵呵~
    欣赏人当然会有啊,
    但还不至于“崇拜”吧?
    祝:国庆日快乐啦! :D


    Xuehui:
    以前乳臭未干,
    即使天大地大,
    天蹋下来也只当被盖;
    以前,真勇敢 :)
    哈哈

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  8. Anonymous10:24 PM

    Hi Dude!

    Called yr cell but diverted to voicemail

    Happy Birthday!!

    Daniel & Kamen
    Paris & Vienna

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  9. Hey Man,

    Breathe aye. Have faith in yourself.

    And um, just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday!

    Was gonna text you but my cell died on me and I lost all my contacts. Leave me your number alright.

    best,
    J.Pey

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  10. byran
    是时候写些东西了!等的颈项都长长了!^^

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  11. DKPV,

    sorry i was overseas when u guys called me.. anyway, really thanks for ur guys' voice mail, that's the one and only birthday song i heard this year :)

    Dear J Pey,

    Happy Birthday to you, too, oh! hehe

    阿洛,

    不好意思啦,
    前几天不在国内,
    所以没update我的部落格,
    接下来几天敬请期待哦!

    ^__^

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